I tell story...

Oh well, this is life

2011-10-28T12:18:00.000-07:00

Being cheat by someone is so not cool. To be honest I don't really know why I wrote this here but i just want to let it go. I mean I don't want to keep it to myself. I want to be happy but today I'm not.

Note to yourself: Don't trust people easily cause one day you'll regret it (like today)
I do regret it now but I'm just going to let it go. Mummy said it's how life works. You need to be strong like always. Smile while you can but seriously I think people who can still smile or laugh when they hurt is so strong. Even I can't pretend to smile when I'm hurt. I'm really proud of you fiyzza :)

Everyone may have the same hair colour but their heart is different. Learn this quotes and you'll understand why i wrote this. People are difference.

U know sometimes i miss us

2011-10-19T16:02:00.000-07:00

Remembering your old memories make you realize how immature you are back then. Now I realise I've grown older and boring. I miss my school time when I'm with my friend. We had fun while studying. You know what i mean right? Even though we only see each other in school but that is fine cause we can still talk about our life while revising. Even though our life is so so so busy due to exam and school activity but it's fine we can still laugh. Now I realise everything that I use to have before will eventually gone by time past by. It's okay cause I still have someone around me but the moment when you had with your friend will remain as a memories until you die.

You know sometimes i wish i can return to my old time where i can fixed everything before I've grow older. I don't want to be selfish or childish any more :(. I'm just complicated! Nobody can know the real me even i don't know what I want for my life. Please return to me. I'm sick of waiting.

today routine

2011-09-22T16:48:00.000-07:00

I'm glad i can still blog cause right now i am so desperately hungry but i can't be bother to go downstairs. How i wish i can have maid that can cook for me whenever i'm lazy. That will be like i win the lottery isn't it?

what to says? hurm today i woke up early like 9 a.m. well maybe it's early for me but blaah i don't really care. I can finally meet my parent after 3 days they've been busy with their uni's work. My umi cook 'nasi lemak' today. yay it was super delicious. How i wish i can eat the rice right now but too bad it's already finish :( . Mommy i'm hungry. We invite kak Jun' and her husband abng gucci's today. Our house is full with guest. I'm so happy whenever my parent and guest came to our house. It's like full house. get what i mean? Since my abe left went back to MALAYSIA, our home become so quiet and bored. It only me and fiyza.

owh owh btw before i forgot! I just want to says that i bought a new brush! yes hair brush. Even though its a simple brush but its already make me happy cause with 'that' brush, now i can finally comb my hair with it. hahaha what a lame excuses. Actually i just adore that brush so much that is why i bought her's :)

bye bye abe

2011-09-13T10:10:00.001-07:00

oh what should i do now?? i don't know who am i gonna fight with :( its okay. he'll be back.

Is it my birthday already??

2011-09-11T14:35:00.000-07:00

yo! i'm making a new post today twice cause i just want to says thank you for the present (karisma,qila and izzati). I was so surprise. anyways thank you. i love you ! MUAHXX.

Tomorrow is Monday so everybody was busy with their school or college or even university. Have fun you guys.

I receive a very beautiful present from karisma putu. Thank you karis. You know i have never wear baju kebaya before in my life right? So i seriously don't know if i look good on it or not. hehehehe. Anyways thank you for the baju kebaya yay!. I'll make sure to wear them during eid next year. and btw i love the red kebaya. I really love red now a days. I always love everything in red. so i think my favorite colour starting today is going to be red. Not green anymore. I've changed.

Mine was red one and fiza was brown one. we all love our kebaya :)

Thank you Lui boutique

Not to forget i also receive present from qila and eti last saturday before they went back to LIVERPOOL. guess what they bought for me??? .....It pajamas and under wear. HAHAHA. *naughty smile

It's cute right?? I always love cute pajamas and for the under wear it's cute. Thank you :D:D

Last but not least i bought myself a new pair of jeans from GAP. I have never bought an expensive jeans before cause you know i can't afford to buy one but today i don't know why but i feel like i need one. Good pairs of jean that can make me feel good whenever i wear them. hehehe

Thank you GAP. I love your jeans :)

Thank you for making me laugh ;')

2011-09-11T14:17:00.000-07:00

hello dear stalker, how r u?? had a really great weekend so far?? Mine was super awesome. Thank you guys for visiting us in here and always make me laughing with your stupid joke. LOL. I wonder how people live without laughing for a days?? hurm. Well for me i don't need to try so hard to be happy cause i already am happy. I've been surround by awesome people! yup! that is so true. There are so cool, awesome, friendly, dumb (opss)

Here some photo when qila and izzati visit Manchester last Friday and Saturday. We had a really good time together. Aww I miss our old time together, i wish everybody was here (karis, siti, najib, aiman) Oh why did u guys need to leave so early? :( It's okay. if i have enough money i'll make sure we all going to meet each other again.

Here we go.....

from left izzati,fiza,fatin,eywa and qila

We are so cool like this

ok !stop messing around let just took photo and smile :D

erk? let just pose shall we??

pretend to be cute everyone .

my hubby. its our anniversary last friday. hahah gedik

ok watever. she's cute

oh my we are so tired to walk home.

where am i?? hurm

this is totally candid

lets pretend that we're freak!

now! make a silly face

how come i always feel awkward whenever i'm in the photo?? ;"(

bye bye

We're in Liverpool

2011-09-07T10:40:00.000-07:00

Thanks to aqila and izzati for guiding us through out the day when we in Liverpool. It was hilarious and i really wish next time i can go with my daughter a.k.a Fatin and also karis. It would be good if we can travel together again.

Let me talk about our day in Liverpool?

We arrive at Liverpool about 11 then i meet qila and izati for the first time after 2 years we've been missing each other. We use to hangout together before but then everybody have their on work to do so we stop keep in touch .They told me that they'll come to Manchester for a visit one day before i go back to Manchester. horaay!

We're in Albert Dock but we not ready for the photo yet ;'(

I don't know this place but we took a few photo for memories. bless us ;)

We're in bus station. Moment when we says good bye to Liverpool before saying Hello to Manchester

Albert dock while posing chack chack. <----I dont really know. ignore me.

Us together taking photo.

Liverpool is very beutiful i wish i live there.

The same posing again. LOL

Jumping time. I want to jump but i am very confused of what posing to do. LOL

Take take photo is fun. trust me

HO!HO!HO! i am not LIVERPOOL fans!

Jumping time again.!

Mummy and Daddy.

Mummy and Daddy again. hehehe bless

We are from Manchester and Edinburgh

Cute sibling. Aww ;)

Fiza and kak syma. she's the best

Best WEEKEND ever

2011-09-05T07:57:00.000-07:00

HEY! yo! wassup. LOL . Last Saturday me, fiyzza, my abe, kak syma and zack went to Alton Tower for the first time. It was so so so cool. The roller coaster was extremely dangerous and scary! You can't even predict what will happen to you when you ride on it. I was crying after riding the roller coaster while everyone was laughing at me. wth? very nice of them. but i don't care i really am scared! LOL. ask fiyzza how loud i scream when i ride on it.

Enough about me talking ( i mean typing) let just see the photo. hahaha. dont laugh when u see my face okay?(karis)

Loook fiyzza face and kak syma? funny right? actually i was at the back with them but they didnt took my photo time naik roller coaster niy.

US five time naik sampan kot? i dont know we all get wait time niy.

Abe with his mate. they both are talking time naik ride niy. gler kan?? ish2

jumping time

pretty scary right?

Time Fly

2011-08-23T16:38:00.000-07:00

Omg, I miss our memory together and now we're far away but we still keep in touch with everyone. I miss how our day always full with laugh and our silly joke. Sometimes we do fight but its okay everyone fight cause they want to make sure the friendship bond that they create is stronger. I know that! I just want to wish happy belated birthday to the girl in the middle but we can't celebrate her birthday together this year. I'm sorry.

This photo was actually when we had like a small party just for my sister the one in the left side. he turn 17 last 23rd march. We bake cheese cake for her but i don't think its cook properly. hehehe our bad.

today activity!

2011-08-08T12:19:00.000-07:00

All day helping my sister making kuih tart! yay us! LOL i was only sit there and talk to her while she's trying her best to make very pretty biscuit for my abe! At least i'm trying my hard to help someone to cook! Don't judge okay??

hey it's Sunday here

2011-07-17T10:04:00.000-07:00

Today activity:

It's raining outside.

I on my way to finish my so call love story. =)

My mom cook nice rice today. I love it but it make me full so easy but i still like it. It was nasi ayam.

I woke up at 10 today cause you know it holiday you was meant to sleep late.

I clean my house today! It was fun like seriously. I can't even describe! LOL.

Me and fiyzza went to Tesco buy orange juice, tissue, and my skincare routine.

Me and Fiyzza pack staff today. Well not that much just spoon, folk and knife.

Right now i'm waiting for a text.

It's raining again.
(p/s:Dear rain please stop crying. )

I already vacuum my living room this morning but i think i need to do it again. :)

Okay bye. I want to vacuum .

OK. Now i get it

2011-07-16T10:15:00.000-07:00

So i've been figure it out the answer by myself for this past few days and now i get it. Now i know the answer why he won't let us do what we want to do.

Im totally bored!!

2011-07-13T03:32:00.000-07:00

hello. I'm bored.. I keep saying the same word over and over again!. I just want to do something good! I hate staying at home waiting for people to come back from their job. I hate doing cleaning job at home. It's boring! again i use the same word. Sorry. I just don't understand why my dad won't let me to go out even if i want to go to park. Why? Can you at least give me like a proper reason. Is it because you scared or what? Actually i take it back. I just want to go out whenever i want and please don't be mad if i don't tell you where i go cause to be honest the place that i always hangout or chilling is only at Fatin's place. She the only want i have right now. I just want to spent our last time together because i know one day when i go back to Malaysia, i will miss people in UK especially someone's around me. Please don't punish us by shouting cause it will make it even worse! We will only choose the opposite side of yours. So please don't be like this ;(

Hey I'm on my short break

2011-07-08T17:47:00.000-07:00

Hello! How do you do? I'm fine thank. How bout you? What am i talking about? This is so crap! Today is my official 2 week after finished my exam. yay! I'm happy but somehow i feel so bored staying at home doing all the cleaning staff. I am so bored with this kind a routine. I want to do something else. Well basically i just want freedom from my family. But they don't seem like letting me go. I guess i just need to wait till i am ready to be an adult. I wonder when? But for now let just be happy okay? MUAHAHAHAH

Btw karis already left to her country BALI. She left us 3 alone in this country called UK. Well i guess i need to move on. I mean let just keep all the memory that we had together keep in our memory forever shall we?

bye bye

physics exam

2011-06-17T02:55:00.001-07:00

yeah thats right? i have an exam today! It will be my second last exam before my final exam. yay! should i be happy for this or not? Anyways my exam is going to be this afternoon at 1.30pm. Im worried about my exam for some reason. wish me luck please:(

hey it's me again

2011-06-13T12:49:00.000-07:00

Okay let me be honest! Actually i'm in my very good mood to update blog. Don't blame me for being like this sometimes. Enough with nonsense. I was just excited to how people which bag i was talking about before. So people if you never heard about longchamp which i guess know...

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yay! it's here now. Is it pretty? do you like it? please says yes cause i actually do love this kind a bag,!:| Ummmmmmyyyyy I really want this bag. Buy it for me please will you?:D

i'm addicted with ?

2011-06-13T10:21:00.000-07:00

hello dear, i'm currently revising for my final exam for this 2 week then i'm done. I wonder why it took so long for me too finish high school? meh? Btw right now i'm so addicted with longchamp bag. why? oh dont ask why? i just like the pattern with simple look but also glamour. wah! i know fashion? serious? of course i do. duh. hahaha joke. actually i start like this pattern since last summer when i saw this kakak bought it in Paris and i was like wow! I want it too and since then i start saving my money to buy that bag! I swear before i go back to Malaysia i will buy that bag! Seriously I'm so addicted with it. It seem like i'm watching longchamp bag like everyday since last summer even my sister told me to stop staring at it. It's not like i have money to buy that kind expensive stuff for my future but i really want it though. please please please. I begging you god to make sure i have this bag in the future.:D

hey im back! <----(no one even care)

2011-06-11T11:51:00.000-07:00

oh wow its been ages since i read my last post. do you miss me?? hahaha i bet you were. btw I've busy since last April due to exam and staff and to be honest i still have 3 exam to go and i still think i should update my blog to share my last memory in UK land. After this 2 or 3 or maybe 4 month i'll be back home. 0_0
~~I start to miss my country now, well maybe cause i'm jealous with karis!~~
No actually i just it's not because of karis or anyone else. I just think that i should be back to where i belong. Oh wait i think we off the topic now.

I'm looking forward for my summer this year. I don't know why but i think it's going to be cool and awesome. I want to celebrate my finishing high school moment as well as my last summer in here. what do you think i should do?? making a check list? (i think i should start saving money first) .

Should i go to prom or not??

I can speak ..

2011-04-14T16:09:00.000-07:00

Starting from now one i want try at least using my Malay language in a correct ways and not slang. I want to be good at it not medium but i also want my English to be perfect and not to mention my Chinese language as well.

Anyways I've been ill for this past few days. It's because of the weather changing for this past few week. My body cannot cope with new environment easily because as you know i have a baby antibodies. Haaha Jokes.! My body cant get used to hot temperature even though its not that hot but it already hot for my body.

I am so looking forward for my girl days out this sunday. i cant wait! yeay!!:D:D:D

Hey

2011-03-16T17:25:00.000-07:00

I'm bored. I seriously don't know how to start revising. I hate starting point! I can organize thing! I seriously can't. BTW i just finished y exam yesterday! yay! im so glad i finish it on time. and yes my teacher was also proud of my work. double yay!

Today was allen exam. I wonder how his exam going to be like? More nicer than mine? I'm hoping not! HAHAH i'm mean! He says my work was ugly. how dare him! He don't even know me and its rude for him saying that! MEAN GUYS! but pfft who care.!

p/s: karsi or fatin if u read this. please note i havent talk to allen yet.

This is just beginning

2011-03-07T15:20:00.000-08:00

Hello~! School was pretty stressful with coursework and mock exam this week. Everything is killing me! I feel like want to escape from this world and go to another world with feeling of summer. yay! hahaha i was really happy with the weather now a days. Even though it's not quite warm yet i will still be happy for it. I just finish my English coursework . My final one. yes finally, i need to hand it in for tomorrow otherwise she's going to kill me i guess. well i actually lie to her. I'm sorry miss i don't have choice. I need sleep like seriously! I don't have enough sleep since last night. I was crying again this morning cause i force myself to woke up early.

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I'm too tired with this situation

2011-03-03T14:53:00.000-08:00

I'm depressed. Everything is just wrong this week. Everything i do is wrong. I can't be myself anymore. I feel like want to give up my science subject. Its too much! i hate it. why?????

I'm back to school.

2011-03-02T00:16:00.000-08:00

Pssst. sometimes i can' stand with school rule. what wrong with trainers anyway??? Is it wrong?? well i dont really wear trainer to school but i still think it's not fair for some people who can't afford to buy normal shoes so they decide to buy trainer which is easy for them when P.E or watever reason. God! stop being annoying will you sir?? I'm bored to see your face like everyday. You should feel thanks full when your student came to school and not ask them to go home! IDIOT!. I'm so angry right now.!

hey i'm back.

2011-02-26T17:00:00.000-08:00

I miss 2008 so much. I miss being childish sort of. well compare to now i think being childish is still okay than now. I hope time fly slowly . I don't want to go home . honestly i get used to this place already. PLease please i begging you. stop this all crap thing. I'll try my best to get better result for my GCSE exam this summer in a few month really. I finish my exam this 23rd july. Finally i can be free. well not really! after that i need to be prepare to go home, oh! god please i want to spend my last summer in here. please!!!

GUESS what? we doing revision again

2011-01-12T13:23:00.000-08:00

Now i want to talk about cloning:)

1)Select one egg from sheep 1(with desired characteristic)
2)Select another egg from sheep 2
3)Remove sheep 1 (with desired characteristic) egg membrane
4) Remove sheep 2 nucleus
5) Add the nucleus from sheep with other sheep egg membrane.
6) inject an electric to egg membrane
7) An embryo return to sheep 1

Revision again

2011-01-12T13:11:00.000-08:00

Now I'm going to talk about selective breeding

Selective Breeding
1)select 2 desired characteristic
2) Chosen male & female are breed together
3) choosing desired characteristic to breed them again.
4)repeat process for many generation until desired characteristic been produce.

enjoy !:)

Revision

2011-01-12T12:56:00.000-08:00

I got exam tomorrow. Wish me luck for tomorrow. I feel like copying karis post. She like to post about her math and physics staff. Well you don't mind if i copy you??

Btw this is about mitosis and meiosis.

Mitosis-Body cell are diploid (contain 2 chromosome of each cell)

How mitosis happen

1) A cell contain 4 chromosome
2) Chromosome are copied
3)Chromosome form a line down center of a cell
4)Copied chromosome move to opposite pole.

Meiosis-gametes-haploid(contain 1 chromosome of each cell)

How meiosis happen

1) A cell contain 4 chromosome
2)Chromosome copied
3)Copied chromosome pair up side by side
4) The copied chromosome split to produce 4 cell.(each contain half chromosome.)

p/s: It a good thing to learn thing inside you body. It o interesting:) enjoy!

one more left

2011-01-09T05:28:00.000-08:00

Exam in a few days, i don't know if i'm ready for it or not. Anyways like i says before i';; try my best to get an A. Even though its seem like(only a dream) for someone study biology for 1 week but i want to try my best to get an A. I want to show to him that i'm not stupid and dumb like he always says to me. Why? because he think people who skip 1 year cannot survive in GCSE world. wth?? who do you think you are? god?? you can't predict future. don't you get it?? who care if u use to study in oxford. you still can't predict future.

pfffttt....

2 finished 1 more left:D

Stop taking everything away from me.

2011-01-06T13:10:00.000-08:00

I want my old life back. Life that i can feel happy with my friend and do thing that i want without being force. Can you return it back to me please? Stop being so innocent and pretend like everything is my fault! Its not fair, don't do this to me . I'm tired. I really am. I don't feel alive anymore. I'm begging you stop this nightmare right now. I don't think i cant survive anymore.

Everything change since school has start. I don't know when though. Maybe it true that time fly without you noticing it. I'm tired right now. Only god know how tired i am. My exam is next week. I'm not ready yet . However, after yesterday assembly i feel alive. Thank to Miss Torr. Even though i don't really like her. I think there's a miracle right? Everything you do already have been decide by him. I start to revise since then. I'm glad i realize that time is ticking down without stopping it.

Bye my old world and hello revision. I still new here . Please treat me nicely:)

I should start saving now.

2010-12-31T10:03:00.002-08:00

Hey i'm back from shopping! OMG! It was incredibly awesome. Even though i only bought shoes but still i feel really good from the inside. I still wish i can buy everything. I want to start my saving until next year cause my brother told me that he want to go to Germany i want to ask him to buy me a handbag from longcham (is it right?? i dont know how to spell). I know its a bit old staff for me to buy but nahh i don't care i want to have my own handbag and expensive one before i went back home. weeee~

bnyk kan?? penat kot ktorng shopping arini tpi best

Btw forgot to mention this is my present for my birthday from all my lover:)

haha, she bought this. I love it too but i don't have money

can be my favorite shoes starting today.

haha, no caption

same here

p/s: i'm happy to go shopping with my family but sometimes i wish i can go shopping like this with my friend as well:)

happy mood

2010-12-31T02:08:00.000-08:00

lately i don't feel like doing my homework either my revision. I need to start revising . What should i do? otoke??? god help me. oh yeah i know! maybe i should go shopping first?? yes shopping. okay people i'm off to outlet to have some shopping. yehhaaaa!! bye bye.

end soon

2010-12-28T15:07:00.000-08:00

I can't be bothered anymore. I have these diseases called 'lazy' I think you hear it somewhere and most of people who live in this world have this disease before. Oh well, I just need to be patient until I have 'the feeling' to start study. I'm still on my holiday mood after coming back from London. It was awesome, like everyone says when they come back from London. You still have the 'London' feeling. I don’t know how to describe though as you can see I'm not good at explaining a thing. I'm really bad at it. However, the only thing ruined my holiday is my fever. Argh! why? why now? I should admit London is hotter than Manchester. I can't stand with the temperature. Too hot I know I sound a bit bitchy but this is so real. I'm not lying. I can't stand with hot temperature anymore. I feel like dying. Seriously, I feel like fainting but lucky me. My body is strong like a bull. I should blame my house! It's too cold. I think my body gets use to cold temperature since last year. I don't know if i can survive with Malaysia's temperature next year. God please help me!

It's only 2 or three day left for next year. woah! Time did fly when you're not waiting for them. I don't feel like saying good bye to 2010. It's been a great year so far for me. Sadness, happiness, loneliness, shyness when all the 'ingredient' blends in my life make it more wonderful. Maybe what old person says was true. You still need sadness in your life to make you realize how great life is when you can appreciate them. I use to think I’m not lucky to come in Manchester study for three years, but now I realize how lucky I was. I don't know how to put on a word.

Not feeling well

2010-12-27T16:27:00.000-08:00

Currently HOLIDAY in London. I Love London but not as much as Wales. Of course. Wait maybe i lie, actually i really love London because of the city. It's really busy and crowded. I like thats kind a stuff. -.- We went to visit my parent's friend from Malaysia. It's was okay even though it's a bit boring for me cause i don't have my laptop with me. Anyway i'm not feeling well. And this is real not fake. I catch flu when im on my holiday. How boring is that? I think its because of the temperature. Owh well, eywa you need to be strong. Malaysia is way more hotter than UK, 0...0

Snowy photo

2010-12-20T15:07:00.000-08:00

The day when we decide to have fun with Mr. Snowy.

random#7

2010-12-19T14:20:00.001-08:00

Without you i'm nothing,

With you i'm something

Together we're everything

p/s: I stole this quote on facebook and i don't care :)

random#6

2010-12-17T14:42:00.001-08:00

best day:)

I'm waiting..

2010-12-17T13:47:00.000-08:00

The time is l ticking and i'm still here waiting for my days. Tomorrow is the day when i'm turning to 15. I'm happy and excited. I can't wait for tomorrow . This is the time when i feel like staying up late waiting for midnight and wishing 'happy birthday' to myself. LOL i know its a bit childish thing to but its actually FUN. You only celebrate your birthday once a years so why not try something new even its the stupid thing you ever think of. I still remember when fiyzza and me stay up late only to wish me happy birthday. Aww isn't it sweet? Staying up late with someone that mean everything to you in this world??

The thing is i'm really happy to celebrate with someone who actually care about me and i promise i will never forget about them. To be honest when i says 'you're everything to me' I actually mean it. I really really going to cry if one day when the time have come for me to says good bye to you. I'm sorry. I don't want to says good bye. I really don't:(

random#5

2010-12-15T07:30:00.000-08:00

I miss him

I guess i'm just too bored for posting random picture. -____-

I can feel how u feel...

2010-12-13T13:28:00.000-08:00

Heart Vacancy
By: THE WANTED

First of all let me tell you the meaning about this song. By the way forgot to mention i currently in love with this beautiful song. My replay button 'broke' because of me. We can describe this as a love song i guess? But for me its not about love. Well, actually it depend on individual really. Anyways back to topic. <____<

This song is about someone who can't accept 'thing' that they really want by pretending that they don't care actually they do care. They use a mask what i like to call it as 'pretending mask'. They act like they don't care but deeply inside they're the one who hurt the most. Maybe the person afraid to lose the one they love by keeping it all to themselves.They scared to show their true feeling. It's okay to tell people how u feel. Just show it and don't hide it. People will notice it and make it up to you. And know you are better better if the person is 'me' who can fill the vacancy inside your heart. All you need is open the door ad let the loneliness move out from your room so i can come in and let your room shine with happiness.:)

I ♥ DECEMBER

2010-12-12T04:59:00.000-08:00

Dear December,

Please be good ? I really enjoy being with you. I really like spending most of my time in December. I love December and i hope this will stay the same.:)

It's not today:)

2010-12-09T21:41:00.000-08:00

I lie again. I'm sorry. I still like him and still talking about him everyday. I mention about his name everyday.. I can't stop open his 'profile' in fb and stare at his photo like a weirdo. I know its weird. But this is me i guess?

I smile like a stupid person when i saw his happy smile. He make my day.:')

I'm away

2010-12-03T00:11:00.000-08:00

It's Friday! Everyone wish for Friday night and not Sunday night . Why?? -__- You know the answer people. :)

I'm sick of waking up early. I feel tired every morning. Go to school is still okay for me but the preesure before mock exam is ~~superb~~. I want to have a break this Christmas holiday before that i need to revise-REVISE-REVISE. I think i getting use to tired. I like prefer tired than bored. don't you think??

Exam timetable

Monday- Option D (basically coursework for triple science.)

Tuesday- Option C (textile. OMG i only have a few preparation. what am i going to do??)

Wednesday- Option B ( food tech. haven't revise yet.)

Thursday- , Maths paper 2, and english

First snow for 2010

2010-12-01T16:42:00.000-08:00

It's snowing today...i'm so happy but then it's cold but meh, i don't care. I had a really good day plays snow ball fight with my friend. I wish the snow will became heavier tomorrow. I don't wish for school but i want to go only to play snow ball. LOL

Anyway i bought a new scarf today. It's cute and flowery. I like flowery stuff. Karis going to London tomorrow. I'm so jealous with her.

p/s: i want to sleep bye.

something wrong.

2010-11-29T15:47:00.000-08:00

I'm odd. It's my second day now. I don't sleep at all. What wrong with me? Its nearly midnight but my eyes still open wide and it doesn't seem to close at all. by close i mean sleepy not dead...I think to much sometimes, my brain hurt when i try to remember thing i can't even remember. But somehow i feel like remembering something past. What could it be??

The weather is crap. -__-. I feel sick with the weather. I'm still strong like before. It's really rare to see i'm ill now a days which is good. I get use to the weather cold or hot i'm strong like a steal. Nobody can knock me down even the weather. I can bet.

Everyone wish for a great moment...

2010-11-28T14:35:00.000-08:00

I had a really good weekend, even though the weather is really bad outside.

But i'm happy when i'm with them. Laughing , tell random joke,share idea, bully each other and even cry .

this is sweet..

2010-11-26T14:50:00.000-08:00

'I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can't accept not trying.'

He put this quotes as his status. i want to try but i'm scared. I'm scared if i'm failed. I'm scared to deny that i'm failed. I'm not strong enough to do everything WITHOUT thinking. I don't like trying...

someone help me. I'm i need help:(

random#4

2010-11-22T09:28:00.001-08:00

I miss him ;'(

Relaxing weekend

2010-11-21T15:33:00.000-08:00

I wish every week can be the same...

please??

i had fun today

2010-11-20T10:39:00.000-08:00

We watch harry potter today. Its so damn good better than last time I think. Anyway I had a really good time today before my mock exam which is good so starting for next week I'll try my best to update good 'stuff' in my brain. LOL.

I want to see the last one in UK.:'(

new challenge !

2010-11-18T15:01:00.000-08:00

Maryam, Samira, Laura, Waheed, Parween and me decided to make cupcake this afternoon. I was so excited to make them and also scared at the same times. I always have these weird feeling when i cooked something for someone and make me worried if my food didn't turn up to be good . I really hate these feeling someone help me!:(

I saw this random cupcake in google very similar to our cupcake! But ours of course more cute than this!. We add come sweet colour to the icing sugar even i don;t feel like eating the cupcake .
The time fly so fast. I don't have time to help. I only help them for like 20 minute then go home. I'm so sorry guys but you guys are totally the best team! I feel sorry for maryam and samira they need to run to tesco to buy the chocolate and icing sugar. Thanks btw. I hope our cupcake will finish tomorrow. Oh yeah my cupcake, its turn out to be cute and small different than others but its alright. Mine was special so please buy my cupcake. LOL I'm still so excited for tomorrow and on Saturday. I'm going out with my girls. We haven't spent time with each other for like ages. I miss them so much. I don't know how can i live without them when i go back. So this saturday we are going to watch Harry Potter honey! Yes ! finally . well i dont really watch harry potter.

p/s: I meet this new guy in fb he called aizat really nice guys:)

random#3

2010-11-16T01:57:00.000-08:00

this is sweet :)

Invisible?? It's normal for me.

2010-11-13T14:17:00.000-08:00

I know t i'm just too simple compare to my friend. Don't need to tell me i already know. It' our mock interview last Friday. It a practice interview for college. All school have their interview in school but our is special..... Who am i kidding? School just can't be bother to handle the car park. That why they send us too their office.

Anyway, my friend was wearing heels, make up, gorgeous dresses, short skirt, straight/curl hair. They do look like a young adult . Guess what i was wearing?? plain Karisma's blouse and black trouser with Maryam's shoes. ( I like to borrow people stuff) Joke! I don't have time to be prepare. I was to busy with school and coursework. I don't want to waste my time to think about this silly thing. I was plain remember? I always thought my appearance was always too plain. I always appear with simple ordinary clothe.But my interview was excellent.I was confident,talkative, serious, mature person .. I talk to much i think but i don't mind. The interviewer was friendly as well.

What i was thinking about interview yesterday was you don't need to dress up waste your money to just buy a new clothe or even hurt you feet for wearing heels.Wear thick make up only to impress you interviewer. You just need to be confident and that all you need.

p/s:I saw NELLA yesterday, he was in my science class. My life was wonderful yesterday. It will definitely be my best day ever in school. He was so cute with his pink shirt. I miss talking about him.

Am i stupid?

2010-11-04T15:00:00.000-07:00

Today...I don't feel right aout myself. There is something missing from yesterday. I can't figure it out what actually missing. But i swear this feeling won't go away. What happen to me? I need help especially from someone that i care and love. Where are they??

I saw him at the corridor, standing exactly in front of him. Watching him pass through me, really make me feel as an invisible person to him. I'm not wasting my time for this useless thing. I'm not going to give up my time only for him. I'm not a typical woman who will wait for a guy. But why do i always end up liking him over and over again?

I miss my Chinese school! I promise i will visit my old school 1 day.:)

Please just wait Eywa. It's only for a few months. Don't be weak. This is what people called ~~LIFE.~~ Pretend to be strong and you'll be fine.

Can i see future?

2010-11-03T15:31:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wish for miracle to happen. It's okay i don't mind if it only for once in my life. I'm bored with my current life. Basically all my brain contain is 'nothing'. I wish to see future like this quotes says'prepare umbrella before rain.' I found this quotes from Malay books actually. If you can see the future thats when you can get prepare and get ready to fight for it. As we know life is not an easy topic like we do in school. Life is much harder as you getting older.

I don't know if you realize everyday when you wake up there is problem waiting for you. Everyday you need to get ready and be prepare. You never know? What going to happen. This is how you learn mistake from you life.

But i'm tired. I know i like to complain. I have so many issues in my life to complain about. This is how life work don't you think? Is it really work though? Even if you cry is it will solve? or eat to become happy. It's common in our lifestyle, to drink when they stress or take sleeping pill to solve the problem. I don't understand why.

See? we can at least prepare umbrella before rain if we can see future.

Autumn .

2010-10-30T15:11:00.000-07:00

I'm tired, hungry, black eyes, cold, wet. but i'm happy. Today journey was perfect even with the rain but never mind. I take it as my adventure journey in UK. well i don't really like rain, i guess i get use to England weather.

I really cant be bother to update photo. i really am. i'm too lazy for updating stuff but i really really want to just update my blog for some reason. My half term break is officially over after tomorrow. the time pass, but i'm still here doing nothing for school.(need to do it tomorrow)

Random#2

2010-10-27T10:25:00.000-07:00

Sorry for everything......

I don't feel like leaving them

2010-10-25T12:10:00.000-07:00

Fatin
I read fatin's blog just now. I feel like want to cry. I never thought of her when i left. Who going to spend time with her? I'm sorry for being selfish. I will never forget our memory together especially when you always accompany me when i want to go shopping. Go to crumpsall park together. Do silly yoga together. I don't want to leave all my sweet memory together. I know i was stupid for judging you when we first me i regret after that! You always the apposite . I was wrong i'm sorry again. You are the best friend i ever meet, you are so cool i like ur style. I'm so sorry for being childish sometimes or even annoyed you when i go to your house.

karis

I don't know when we going to meet again. You going to leave in Bali. Please visit Malaysia if you have time. Sorry if sometimes i make you feel upset. I promise i will change my attitude. Sorry for my bad language. I only 14 i don't know anything. I still need to learn how to became an adult. Thank for the good memory we spend together. Don't ever feel regret to knowing me if you do i will feel upset. I know i'm not good at being serious when i talk to people. i feel awkward, i need to make a joke . i know i'm being childish and stupid but this is how i am. I try my best to change myself. I need time please be patient. :) You're the best friend i ever had in my life. You always make me laugh and make fun of my bantal busuk. LOL

Break time

2010-10-25T09:40:00.000-07:00

Its half term break. I'm so happy after 6 tiring week went so fast. I don't even realize that we nearly going to finish October this year. This month when pretty good i guess?

Talking about October month its, of course all i can think is about autumn season. Summer season when well and fast i wish i could stay more longer though but its life. you just need to go through everything.

Its freezing today and i still can't be bother to wear my socks. I can feel my leg is screaming for warm nice socks. (excuse you owner) I wish i can go somewhere for my break time such as wales. its a nice place to visit.
I always in love with wales for some reason, i think its really good place to visit for relaxing mind. start with bad day and finish it with happy ending. its not that bad right?

I still cant figure it out what i want for my birthday. i cant decide what to buy, i feel like want everything . But i really need new camera! but i want a new phone as well. what to do? give me an answer?

WHAT?? ?

2010-10-15T11:02:00.000-07:00

From the beginning of this week, i feel like a dummy person. SERIOUSly i think i really need someone who actually can help me with my problem. Where should i start? Its too long to mention it in here but some how i still need to tell somebody before i'm going CRAZY!

With the coursework? OMG! tell me about it especially with Health & Social care. WTH? I act like i know everything but actually i only knew less than everyone aspect me to do. With him? I'm going crazy with him right now. I don't know what to do? LIKE him? HATE him? I can't describe using word. People will think im a bitch but actually i don't know. Im confused. EXAM? my result! i can't believe ! I really can't believe feel like want to kill myself but life still need to move on. TUITIONS ? Im blurr i don't know how to describe. Just try to put yourself in my shoes than you can feel how exactly i feel.

GOD! this is to much to take in 1 week !

p/s: OMG! He approve her but not me!!!! ~~NOT FAIR!~~

changing?

2010-10-08T10:28:00.000-07:00

Its been ages since i have update new thing in my blog. i was surprise to see blogger's changing. Congratulation!
Sorry about me being selfish for not updating my story life in blog. I'm was busy lately which is tired for me also stress out with my coursework. ARGH

Tell a story

2010-09-23T14:03:00.000-07:00

Plan 1 is working. It run smootlhy. I like it. Fact that i can meet him every break & luch time. Its already make my day feel with happiness even though i know the fact that he will not going to like me only even for once in my whole life. Its okay i dont mind. Its better than not seeing him for the rest of year 11.

Having sister and friend feel so good when they litsen toyour story about him. Even thought i know that its boring stuff to talk about but i still love them more than everyone.

I was right it's today

2010-09-21T11:17:00.000-07:00

Wee~ I still can smile till my muscle hurt, only because of him. I saw him today playing basketball and football with his friend. OMGosh! He really good at basketball than football. I'm so jealous at him. For the first time i feel jealous toward him. He can play basketball and i can't. I try to stare at him sometimes when he was playing but vusala and firdaus keep asking me question. I can't focus 2 thing at once. I'm scared they might notice it.

Happy-Happy-Happy-Happy-Happy

There'still tomorrow right?

2010-09-20T14:59:00.000-07:00

sigh, i don't have story to tell today. Nothing happen in school and i cant really see him now. He's not in the toilet. Opss! sorry i mean in front of the toilet. I always saw him in front of the toilet every time i walk pass the toilet. What a bad day for me really. I start to miss him.

I had my injection done today. It's doesn't hurt at all. But my friend must keep saying it hurt, make me feel nervous before having it. The nurse asking me a lot of question and i only answer 1 word for each question. Yes/NO. yup that true i can't answer people question properly when I'm nervous. I thing that the fact about me really. After i had t it was alright actually. No pain No hurt . -cool.- Btw i like the nurse actually she's nice, she make me feel less nervous before i meet her.

The only thing i hate if i late to my lesson is go in to lesson by myself. And it did happen to me this afternoon. I'm so shy! Everyone was staring at me when i step my feet in the class. Mr Mansheter ask me to sit in my place quickly. I hate when people stare at me (0_0)

Regret

2010-09-19T14:35:00.000-07:00

Im so childish!
I can't believe i waste so much time even now.(still have time for blogger)
Try to do you homework on time and not do them last minute.

p/s: I've done it so many time. Its hurt you brain sometimes

Full WEEK

2010-09-18T11:38:00.000-07:00

I'm tired but i promise i will not give up until i try!

This week is really tough for us year 11. I know its only our second week starting school, but trust me we already need to be aware with time and need to be prepare starting now. God its hard. I only have less than a month to be prepare for our next exam.

Give me A break people. !

College open evening will be starting this September. Everyone keep asking the same question that me feel annoyed. I'm tired to answer the same question again and again. I'M not going to college in UK. I want too but i can't I'm going back. I really wish i can do A level before going back Oh well but at least i'm so glad can finish GCSE in here. No SPM for me. yey! I hope no PLKN as well other wise its will be worst nightmare.

Tell me

2010-09-17T16:04:00.000-07:00

Just tell me if you dont need me.

End of story

2010-09-16T09:43:00.000-07:00

I like him, i can't ~~stop~~ thinking of him

i'm sorry if i keep mention about him everyday.

i can't help it.

;(

2010-09-15T14:09:00.000-07:00

At least ~~DON'T~~ called me 'STUPID'

♥ Aitakute ♥

2010-09-14T12:48:00.000-07:00

I can feel that i am so desperate want to see him now a days which hurm?? not sure good ? bad? probably bad. But i really want to see him . Today because of me want something silly i walked down to worlwide bust stop just because fatin told me she saw him taking the 88 there. Is it true?? So i try to find out today, maybe today wasn't my lucky day, i only see his friend and not him. What a bad day for me today. Argh oh well at least i can still see him in school only for another 8 & 7 months then we all gone. ;'(

While im bored

2010-09-13T14:27:00.000-07:00

We was talking about random topic today, quite hilarious. One of them is about boyfriend. LOL this topic is like the best thing to talk about right? I can bet 95% girl like to talk about boys in their life. So here our random topic begin. LOL i choose that guy for karis and she says..

P/S: sorry about the youtube thing. I was bored so i search about silly thing

Not fair for us

2010-09-13T00:21:00.000-07:00

Im so jeleous with my friend in Malaysia they can be happy on eid. I mean they have like 1 eek off school for eid and us only have 1 days off for eid. Im so looking forward for next year going back to Malaysia. Being in UK is so boring.:((

After 1 month..

2010-09-10T08:19:00.000-07:00

Happy Eid Mubarrak

to: All Muslim people.

p/s: going to upload today photo and yesterday photo after cause i don't have time. *wink

GCSE GCSE & GCSE

2010-09-08T10:20:00.000-07:00

Assembly this morning very useful for our year. Sorry i keep talking about ~~school~~ now a days. Everything is all about exam, a bit annoying well that is life right? GROW UPand ACCEPT IT.

I was thinking about myself while i was walking with karis just now. Do i look matured or still childish like i use to be before? I do feel jealous when i see my friend. Especially my sister when she act in front of people she never act like children she always act like an adult. She always ready for everything. I want to be like her. Being a ~~childish~~ is fun but i don't want to be like that forever. I want at least someone look at me as a matured person who can deal with adult stuff.

I know is ~~random~~ that's fact about me sometimes. I like to talk randomly while everyone start asking what am i talking about? Nobody can understand me well.

First day school

2010-09-07T11:37:00.000-07:00

Sorry for late updating, i'm a bit busy this day. Today is my second day in school i already have like lots of work to catch up.Being year 11 is like hell. seriously, why cant they not make us feel stress? At least stop saying ~~WORK, TRY YOUR BEST, FOCUS.~~ Its annoying sometimes. You just feel like shutting someone mouth even the teacher.

I ♥ Shopping with them

2010-09-05T12:45:00.000-07:00

So, this is how the story ending.

I'm was the one who decide to go town together to go shopping for raya.

Actually i was bored with my old clothe and i'm bored with my own style

but what can i says? this is me. And not to mention i was a bit late that morning, not that late just for 1 hour .

I was so tired after shopping,

Love, Laugh, Sad

But i have a great time together.

I'm lost, i'm trying...

2010-09-05T09:42:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of this, i want to start a new page.

Random#2

2010-09-03T15:14:00.000-07:00

"Maybe for once is not about happy ending,

Maybe it's all about story."

Story of the day?

2010-09-03T10:38:00.000-07:00

Went to Tesco with fatin just now. Just arrive at home like 3 minute ago and now i am so tired. But i have a great day it been a long time since i haven't 'chit chat' with her. I really enjoy it, but somebody must ruin my day. Yes someone, well i don't know but i know that she is Malay. I can tell that by just looking at her face.

Well i don't mind if she don't smile to me, to be honest i never smile to stranger but can you please at least don't give you disgusting dirty look to me?

Mission Accomplish

2010-09-03T04:51:00.000-07:00

Finally I did it.

boo, now i'm bored

25th september 2010

2010-09-02T07:57:00.000-07:00

I cant wait for this date to come. I told about my plan to them. The both agree so yeah i hope its not going to be raining though. Hope i can get new camera before this date so i can took photo like every momment bfore im going back. It will be our good memorry. since this is our last time celebrating each other birthday so why not i plan to to picnic right in autumn. but i stil thinking about the food? what should i bring?? sorry for late and early celebrating you girls birthday.

Random #1

2010-09-01T16:02:00.000-07:00

LIFE is not

matter of milestones

but of moment.

need or want ?

2010-09-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

Digital Camera, i want it but i don't know if i need it or not? hurm, i really want to have nice camera by that i mean my own camera. Camera that i can bring it anywhere and whenever i want. Easy to carry, easy to use just 'click click' and 'snap snap'. easy right?

I told my dad about this. i want camera for my birthday but he says no. why dont u just use nikon camera.;'( its okay i'll try my best to persuade hi, yes it will do.

Im fresh, so as YOU

2010-09-01T03:44:00.000-07:00

Good Morning,

I just awake right now, feel really good having a nice sleep. And guess what? i can says Good Bye to my eyes bag now. BYE BYE. For eyes bag:I don't think i'm going to need you in my future life. So stay away from me okie?? Btw I've change my blog template. Well not me but karis did it. Its cute right?? Thank you for karis i heart you again.

OH NO!!

2010-08-31T13:51:00.000-07:00

booooo, you deserve it eywa! I know! it's ,my fault. I have an eyes bag today. Its look horrible on me.I only slept for 1 hour today! I slept at 8 o'clock something then my mom woke me up like 9 o clock to go to college with my sis. I was like ignoring them for the first time. But who am i to being that nasty to my big sister. I force myself to woke up even though my body really can't be bother to wake up. :'(

Random photo!

2010-08-30T21:09:00.000-07:00

Here some picture i found in my 'my picture'. It random picture but i'm being kind here. i want to share this with you.*wink

*she's doing my abe's assignment
also the reason why we came to this park in the first place

*only me who know to took lips photo.

*peace peace why everyone always do peace? anyone know?

* why is she holding shoes? erk?

*at least i try

*i want to jump like them

*pretend to be cool. boo:P

*she says its kind like dead phone LOL

*she with her camera

*finally i did jump

Hello, It's me again? WTH? eywa

2010-08-30T20:41:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep right now. My eyes is hurting me so badly i feel like punch my own face to stop the pain. I cry just now. Maybe because of that. Why did i cry? I don't know. Maybe because of me being 'jiwang' again. I don't know how many time have i been 'jiwang' this day. I feel like something wrong with me every times when I'm alone. So please please please i begin you don't let me being all by myself.

So, I've been hangout with karisma this day that why her dad keep calling her. Sorry not my fault! so we've been checking on make up tutorial in 'youtube'. I really like doing random staff but i think I'm like the freak one here!*omg I'm obsess with something news easily. I'm so obsess with it till i don't feel like open 'youtube' ever again cause every times when i open youtube, make up tutorial just popping in my mind. I'm not going to open youtube for 2 or 3 days maybe a week. *so bye bye youtube for now.

Here a good new for blogger i'm not sure about you guys. I'm going to update my blog everyday. Even though i'm busy i guess. If i'm not i'm so sorry. I;ll try my best don;t worry:) Here also a good news for me! yayy(what wrong with my brain now) I want to change. I want to change from bad habit to good habit. I'm not sure if i can do this but trust me i want to try. I to change my bad habits. I'm not sure what i my bad habits are cause i don't know. I guess i need to figure it out by myself. hurm.. ?

Merdeka :)

2010-08-30T20:01:00.000-07:00

Today is our Malaysian Independence day. Its been 3 year since i left Malaysia. We never celebrate 'Merdeka' in UK for some reason. So yeah, Happy Merdeka Malaysia. Your 53th today hope i can celebrate 'your' day next year. I'm so disappointed, fact that i really want to see the firewood so badly and also fact that i can't celebrate Independence day in Malaysia. Pleae wait for me next year will you?

Fact That I hate about SEPTEMBER

Maybe it's sound familiar to guys why some people hate September but you can still scroll it down. I'm so bored right now i can't sleep so when I'm bored i like to pot kind like random staff. You can still read it if you want.

School
Focusing time
Relaxing time is officially finish
Need to wake up early for school
searching for school uniform
Searching for school books
Must look innocent
Coursework
Homework
meet friend
Raining
Cold
Autumn
Winter is coming *brggg

Basically fact that i hate about September is all about school. Its not because i hate school but i really hate 'starting' if you get what i mean. I need to start new page of book in my diary to fill in all the blank page with a meaning full word and i need to stop wasting time. That what my dad told me to do.

p/s: I've been spending time with karis a lot this summer. Going to miss all this sweet memory next year. :''(

I miss our happy summer holiday last year!

2010-08-27T15:11:00.000-07:00

Today story, its been ages since i haven't update my story every day. I quite miss all my old life that I've been through together with my friend and family. The time has fly so fast till you didn't realize 2010 its nearly over.

I miss my old character. By that i mean my old life. Laugh if you feel happy and cry if you feel sad. Laugh loudly if you feel happiness. Cry quietly if you hurt. Simple life right?? But i guess human change every year. If i think about last year i feel like i'm a little bit childish before than now. But i like childish. Childish is fun more fun them being adult. Who agree with me? Being an adult is just too stressful. You need to think about your future, your job, what will you do. Its all about future. Its so scary but you need to go through your life. Its boring right? Its seem so serious and so Bla Bla Bla. But being childish is all about happiness. You can laugh. play with your friend and do what ever you do.

But of course i prefer to be normal. Time has pass so fast. I feel like i don't have enough time to be childish and now my time its all about focusing on my study to get good result. I feel like everything its not fair to me. Its okay eywa its life. Life is not all about having fun. If you have fun like every single day you will feel boring.

By the way, i want to talk about last year summer. God i miss last year summer! Having Hidayah come to Manchester and we hangout together and go to wales for fishing. And play with lisa,fara,iman,hakim,sara,farhana,iwan,aiman,najib,siti. I miss my old friend. And dont forget aunty ani ,aunty izan and aunty shida's family. We all like together last summer and now they all gone. They all in Malaysia right now. Only my family has left in this country. God its boring. You dont know how boring i am right now. But who care? nobody care about stranger life kan? i guess we all the same. if we dont know them we might not even care about them or even just want to ignore forever in your life.

p/s: tomorrow is bazar ramdhan. im so happy about it . =)

OH i can be a photographer right??

2010-08-26T03:47:00.000-07:00

Last week i was so bored like hell. you cant imagine how bored i was before. Then i decide to took photo while abe was aways for a few day and i want to try his camera. He will never let me borrow his camera if i ask him so i decide to just stole it for a few hour. HAHA. i'm bad i'm not suppose to be bad in this good months.

I'm not the model thought but its okay i'm glad cause i'm not the model. my face was totally fat and i don't wish to take photo at this moment. But hey its okay i show my photo later ok?:)

So are you ready with the most beautiful picture by eywa??

I really love this pic for some reason. i like the way she pose. really suit her. LOL

karis with her college clothe.

I like her dress. Its mine btw.

Her face look like a happy girl

I dont know about this photo. wat do u think?

This photo look fake its like she dragging someone head.

She look mature right?

she can be a great model i think:)

Last but not least i would like you guy to meet our enemy. Me and karis really annoyed with this person up there. She look pretty right? Thank to me and karis. I dont think she going to see this website anyways. SO i dont care:P HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH

Its hard

2010-08-24T06:38:00.000-07:00

I'm a bit confused right now? Try to move on and forget about everything past? I can bet that is the harder thing to do in this world. Trying to forget about everything in your life is not easy to do. Let me ask you follower out there. Can you forget about someone you love ?? But forgetting something simple in life is common in our life. Like you forget to bring your book? or pencil? or forget to brush your teeth in the morning? =)

When i ask myself about this and i thought its really hard to forget dark memory . Same like happy memory right? You cant forget your happy day in your whole life right? Its the same when you have dark memory. something that will make you cry if you think about it. everyone have their own secret that there keep in their mind. same as me i have my own secret. I'll never told anyone about my secret. Its hurt me deeply inside if i think about it. I wish i can erase everything dark in my mind just like delete thing that you don't need in your laptop. but that the fact though. you cant change time you still need to go through everything in you life till you die.

Before I go..

2010-07-23T13:48:00.000-07:00

I still have like maybe 5 or 4 hours left before i fly to Europe!:D wepppeyyy. Im so excited about this news and at the same time im scared. WHAT reason? WELL Im not sure.

Everything have been packing all the food,clothe,PJ,bantal busuk. WAIT bantal busuk? really? yes i bring my bantal bsuk u Europe. Bwekk who care? and talking about bntl bsk. Kakak and karis being a little bit cruel to me. not a lttle bit just cruel. They being cruel cause they put my tali bantal busuk in the bin! ARGH was about to cry but then my tear just cant come out from my eyes maybe i dont hav mauch waer in this body. erk ned to dring water then.

I wonder how will my holiday will be when im there? Is it going to be fn, happy I hope there only fun word come out from my mounth after 2 week holiday and boring word. please i want to enjoy my holiday before year 11 cause im going to die study all the year for my future. Yes im talking about future now babyyy . HAHAHA for some reason i still cant believe im15 now i dont want to be old i want to 12 so i can stay with my parent and not being independent.

p/s: Bye for now see you next 2 week. muahxxx! HEY YOU i know how to use XOXO now.

Summer HOLIDAY 2010

2010-07-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

Summer holiday is finally begin~ I have no idea what im going to do for this 7 week off for holiday. Maybe something adventure? Different than last year of course,like in the movie that people always saw and thought it would be fun if we try something different right? Well my holiday this year might be different that the past summer holiday because we going to Europe for 2 week.

Currently in love with DBSK song. I usually hate reading lyrics cause i found it boring or too much love story but their lyrics is really different than other. ERM whats the word?? UNIQUE . YES unique i heart them so much especially jaejongg. My sis love her crying yunchoon which i think its okay but sometimes...well forget about it and karis she love changmin. We been fighting to get changmin over the holiday but at lat i till cant forget about jaejongg. His smile make me melt! OMG! I think i will faint if i saw jaejongg sit infront of me. what do you think??

I just finished packing my bag. WOW you cant believe how heavy my bag is. I dont have a clue what is in my bag i only bring my clothe and dress and stuff that i need but i feel like there is like some heavy stone in my bag! I hope nobody will complain about my bag. Maybe because girl love to bring something that they think it worth to bring it but actually its something that you really dont need to bring. Like today i was thinking to bring my flowery high heels but because of my bro i cant bring my heels . ARGH not fair! OUh well i'll get ue to it. bye for now

p/s: Im in happy mode today..caue of kiss the baby sky song totally in love with the lyrics.

I miss blogging..

2010-06-25T11:36:00.000-07:00

HELLLLOOOO PEOPLE!!!!=)

I've been missing you since last time i updating my blog! Its quite a long time i guess .... I have so many story to tell you but unfortunately, i just don't know how to put it on word! Summer holiday its starting soon and i am so happy for that! But now there is something that i really not looking forward to it which is work experience. Yes maybe because i'm nervous and it seem like i hate trying new 'thing' in my life which i knew is a bad idea! I really hate to cope with something new. I need to work there for 2 week! It feel like 2 year. Ah~ I'm just going to ignore just going to let the time past and let me be in my old life again ok?

Good news for this week!! Not something important for you i guess? But for me is very important or maybe not? I like someone from my school! OMG! can you believe that?? I dont know how but i think i like him! AND the most problem is i dont even know his name i just like him! I dont even excise in his life! I was wondering...how many week, i can stand liking him secretly! karis says im going to take 2 week or even less! she so mean but today i saw him! He make my days so full with sunshine! I cant even concentrate with my lesson.

Not Ready for THIS

2010-06-09T17:11:00.000-07:00

Currently busy with life after exam which is doing coursework! argh! the most thing that i hate to do in school! I have like so many thing to do this week. I'm so feed up with coursework i don't like it. OMG why do i need to do it? I can't be bothered seriously, i always finished it last minute like today i stay awake till now only for finishing my foods tech coursework but i still haven't finished it. Teacher why you always do this to us student? It's nearly summer holiday why do you need to put so much pain in u we just finish our exam last months why do you need to put more pain to us? Why? I just don't understand it why do we need to do coursework anyways? Are we going to do something about it in the future? OH WELL seriously i'm not bothered i'm just going to run away.

We only have 3 week to go to school! THANK YOU! but NO THANK YOU we need to go to work experience. I am so scared and i am so not looking forward for this work . The teacher told me that i'm going to work in 'superdrug'.'' i was like? huh? really? why?'' I was expecting to work in primary school which is better that this. I know its going to be just fine but oh please i don't want to do this. i feel like want to sleep for 2 week than wake up again!

CAN SOMEONE MAKE MY WISH COME TRUE?

I'm sorry but i need too

2010-05-19T08:27:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry people especially my family i let you down! I don't know my result is really low and by low i mean really low! am i stupid? have i been playing around this day or is it just me? I already revise everything on the time but still my result is still low! I'm very disappointed with myself! =(

CLOSE =BLOGGER, FACEBOOK, YAHOO MESSENGER, FORMSPRING, YOUTUBE

OPEN= BOOK, REVISION BOOK, DICTIONARY, BOOK, BOOK, BOOK, BOOK,

I'm sorry i'm leaving wish me luck with exam!:(

I love their song!

2010-05-13T11:41:00.001-07:00

OMG! btw helllo:) i really addicted to DBSK now! I really love them so much! I feel like married all of them but too bad they already separate! Anyways, I don't to talk about DBSK today i want to talk about their song lyric! I really feel like crying when i read the meaning of the lyrics in english yesterday! The meaning is so sweet a full with meaning.( you know wat i mean right?) I listen to their song after my favorite sis told me too, i dont really like them that much for first time but i dont know! I end up to love their song so much! When i really like the song i will listen to it like everyday till i get bored! SO this is the lyrics enjoy:-

It's not you fault those hand cold,

Clinging into the wounds of the past,

Afraid of love someone turning your back against,

The true meaning of the story,

The heart is hugged, slowly melt like ice,

To be love by someone by anyone it make like shine,

This if it was me, I would make you heart once again warm with undying love,

Fate's play even though it make your heart ache when the tears end,

A ray of light descend from the darkness we can gasp it,

we can feel the fierce painful touch of a person's warmth,

sorrow and loneliness that every person endures

searching for a refuge to mend,

YES that place for you is here! Don't worry don't falter anymore

I will protect you,

Because it is love ( My Love),

As beautiful as it is miserable (Don't be afraid)

This beautiful ( Let you know my mind)

Beautiful time ( You know)

It is ephemeral (Let you know my love)

To be love by someone by anyone it make like shine,

This if it was me, I would make you heart once again warm with undying love.

Did you feel the meaning of this song is strong? I feel the same way like you feel as well! It is a nice song i ever love! I'll never like jiwang song before but i don't know i really like this song!

Stop please! I cant stand anymore

2010-05-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

OKAY! find i admit im jealous! But can you do me a favour?please stop being like this! I know you nice and friendly but please can you stop taking my friend away from me! I only have her in that school, we use to be friend like really close but now when you took her away from me i feel lonely! I use to feel lonely before and now i dont want to feel lonely again! Stop talking to her with your language you make me feel like stranger! I know you can't speak english properly but at least try to speak and stop saying i can't will you? I will be your friend if you stop being like this! I dont know what to do anymore! I already says to sidra but still she says im wrong you the right person to her! You make Sidra change! I use to like her before but now when she change i feel like she not my friend anymore i want my old friend! I dont like the new her! If one day i really can't stand you being with me i will go don't worr! You can take sidra away! I dont care anymore! But please i goe you 1 last chance to change! Dont make me feel lonely again im sic of being lonely! Dont you know its boring? i sat alone, walk alone with no one around me! Hae you ever feel like this before? If you did feel like this before i be you will understand my feeling! I'm trying to be nice but if you did this to me i cant be nice to you anymore!

My tru feeling towad you, :'(

Happy Birthday, Birthday Girl!

2010-05-10T23:38:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday,
Happy Birthday,
Happy Birthday to nissa!

OMG! you turning 15 teen today, i can't belive it! You going to b adult soon! Can't wait to se you when i arrive at Malaysia next year! Can we be like we use to be before? Anyway, I want to wish you happy birthday and hav a nice day today! Its you day! I'm sorry i haven't buy you any present but i promise when i go home i will clebrate you birthday! I love you nissa! you are aways my best freidn forevr!:)

This is for you!

2010-05-09T13:24:00.000-07:00

Hello, and if i'm not to late i want to wish happy mother's day to all mother in this world! I really want you to hear this poem! Its for you! For all mother's in this world! You are everything for you child!.:)

You are everything for me

How did you find the energy, MomTo do all the things you did,
To be teacher, nurse and counselor
To me, when I was a kid.

How did you do it all, Mom,
Be a chauffeur, cook and friend,
Yet find time to be a playmate,
I just can’t comprehend.

I see now it was love, Mom
That made you come whenever I'd call,
Your inexhaustible love, Mom
And I thank you for it all.

For my super duper UMI! I love you! i really do! I'm sorry if i did hurt you sometimes maybe i'm just being too silly! I'm so happy to have you as my mom you are the greatest! Nobody can never replace you in my heart! You are my friend, you are mom, you are my heart, my soul!:) I'm just too happy to have you in this world! Thank you UMI! I love you!

New person in school?

2010-05-05T14:33:00.001-07:00

There are two pupil in my form today which make my life a bit different today! I guess this is a compliment for me or is it not? SO one of the girl called iqra and the other called herrat(sorry bad spelling) The two girl are alright but its seen like i don't really feel okay when i talk to iqra well its normal for everybody i guess when they meet a new person it really hard to get use to them! fine i will just pretend like i don't care about my feeling for a few week. AND herrat she was okay just a little bit shy i guess everybody does same like me before! OMG! you wouldn't believed whe i tell you my story! I was like a nerd when i first came to MCMA i was scared but still i don't want to pretend like im scared! what a loser right? who care about me anyway about herret! yeah she was okay i guess new person in my character never make any different of my life!

" I meet him by accident today! OMG he is so cute like usual and i saw his little brother as well! they both look so cute"